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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

11 weeks, 4 days - I think

So my first appointment is tomorrow at 8:30am. Then I'll know for sure how far along I am. This was taken at 11 weeks and 4 days - according to my calculations.

Yes I'm wearing maternity pants...they're just more comfortable now. I need to get more shirts because most of mine are just too short.

If you're reading this, please know I covet your prayers - especially tomorrow morning. I've been struggling with fear a lot lately; so much so, that last week, I really had no desire to even go to my appointment this week for fear of what I might hear or see (or not see). I have some verses (thanks Shawna!) that I will continue to meditate on but I know - especially tomorrow morning - the fear will return. My desire is that I will focus my thoughts on what I know to be true...God is good, He is in control, and His grace is sufficient.

I know there will be tears in the ultrasound room either way but my hope is that they will be tears of joy. Oh how my heart aches to be a mother...how I long to see my precious child that morning...alive, healthy, and performing all kinds of acrobatics for our entertainment.

8 comments:

Rita said...

Susan, are you carrying two?! You're showing kind of a lot for just 11.5 weeks, aren't you!? (Or maybe it's the Samoan genes!!)

Rita said...

And, I will pray for you tomorrow morning. I have an appointment in an hour and, for some reason, I'm feeling anxious about this one. (I have no real reason to be!) Maybe it's because I'm going by myself this time and Kyle's been with me the past two times. I'm going to blame it on that.

Sara said...

what a happy baby bump!

praying right now that you will experience rest and peace in Him... that "oh-so-good" kind that is beyond all of our understanding, no matter the result of tomorrow's appointment. but, of course, praying for a flood of joyful tears :)

amber leigh said...

girl...i bet you are farther along than 11 wks...your as big as i am and im 15wks...or maybe you have 2 little littles in there!!!

Susan Sene said...

Yeah but I can't be too much further than 12 weeks (as of today) cause the week before I got a positive, I got a negative. We shall soon find out! :) I would be happy if there were two little littles in there! :) Thanks for the prayers everybody!

Joy said...

I was so fearful before my ultrasound, too! Praying that you will see a beautiful, wiggly baby and a strong heartbeat!

Sarah said...

Look at your bump! You look fabulous!

Karen said...

I guess it's confirmed the negative test was a dud! I knew it! No wonder you're showing so much already!