But it's actually been quite the opposite. I haven't missed it once.
And I have been able to focus on this sweet face more
And this one
And I've realized how my girls are becoming two very different people. And how it's possible to still love them both with the very same love.
So I guess it's clear by now. I believe I made the right decision. I haven't regretted it, not one time.
Although, in the age of technology in which we live, I feel there will always be something pulling me away from what I should be focused on. Anything on my phone could become just like Facebook - Instagram, texting, Craigslist, email, etc. What I really have to keep in check is my attitude. When I lose my joy - the joy in the little areas of motherhood like cleaning crumbs off the high chair or helping Ri go to the potty for the sixth time in one day - that's when I can find myself "running away" to my phone to escape; even if just for five minutes.
I wanna be joyful in even the mundane. I want my kids to know that they're not just loved, but cherished. So I hope and pray that God will renew this joy in my heart each and every day.