I never thought I'd make it to 41 weeks with this baby. I've had a very emotional several days. I realized I was being fearful of many aspects of the labor and delivery. And I was worrying about what would happen if I **still** hadn't had the baby by _________. As much as I know God's grace doesn't exist for the "what ifs", I like to live there a lot.
Then I found some verses. And I cried out to the Lord for His peace - and for Him to increase my trust. He has the best plan of them all. And He is trustworthy!
Wednesday evening I asked if Septtro and I could pray together. Afterwards we talked for a while before going to sleep. I could feel the stress leaving.
I had an appointment yesterday afternoon. It went well. Baby and I are doing great. I will go back Monday if I haven't had a baby yet to do a nonstress test and check fluid levels via ultrasound. I'm at peace with having that done - but hoping we will have a baby before then.
Last night I thought may be the night we would meet this baby. I had a lot of regular and strong contractions. But they didn't last. The Lord has changed my heart and attitude. I know it will be soon. And I'm really ready now. I'm ready mentally and spiritually....just have to wait on the physical part and we will have a baby! :)
While on a walk the other night with my almost-four-year-old, I told her Mommy was sad.
She asked why.
I explained, "Because the baby hasn't come yet and I want the baby to come".
"Well", she replied, "you have to wait".
I agreed. Then she continued:
"You have to be patient, Mom. Patient is when you wait for something."
I just love when the Lord speaks to you through your children.