Waving!

She's just started doing this.  Yes, she waves backwards but we're making progress.  :)

Tiiiiiiiiime, why you punish me?

Ok so can you imagine me singing the title from Hootie and the Blowfish's song from way back? No? Another post, another time perhaps.

I have REALLY been struggling lately with managing my time. I think I like to make A LOT of excuses. Scratch that. I KNOW I like to make a lot of excuses. And then there's the guilt that comes with not accomplishing what I think I should have accomplished each day.

I have tried to-do lists. Those seem to stress me out more. Because then I seem to do something that's not on my list instead of what's actually on my list. You know, I pass by the dresser and it's full of dust and I decide it must be dusted immediately! Of course, I promtly add it to my list so I can have the joy of crossing something off my list...but then it just extends my to-do list for the day - making it impossible for me to accomplish all that I wish to; so I feel guilty, and in turn, I wanna give up all together. Septtro has told me to only do one thing - one simple thing - a day while I'm home with Ri. After that's done, I should feel free to just enjoy spending time with my sweet baby girl. But for some reason, I have a very hard time doing that. I mean, what counts as my "one thing"? Putting a few dishes away? Folding and putting away Rilynn's laundry? - wait, that would count as two things right? What about actually getting out of my pajamas? You see how my mind works? It's exhausting, really.

What I do know, is that my to-do list will never end. But I need to come up with a way to feel productive as a mom and wife, yet keep my sanity. One area that needs to improve GREATLY is my quiet time with the Lord. I know this. But why is it I can't seem to get consistent? My excuse that I am too busy with a baby is fading...she'll be 10 months tomorrow!

Ultimately, where is my satisfaction coming from? Obviously not from the Lord. My focus is obviously off. I see that. And I desperately wanna get focused.

I'm just being honest. And I'm open for suggestions.

Future Cheerleader?

She's even said "yay!" a few times. Not that I want her to become a cheerleader, but she does have quite an impressive clap. 

No Longer Our Baby

Suka has had quite the adjustment in the past 9 months. She literally used to be our baby. She'd go everywhere with us.

I can remember people telling me that relationship would change once Ri got here. I didn't believe it. But it's true. It's like someone once said, "Once you have a baby, your dog becomes your dog."

Although she's no longer our baby, she's still a very important part of our family. Sometimes it's nice to have some Suka time.  :)

Big Girls Don't Cry **video fixed**

I didn't realize the video didn't upload before. I have to do it from my cell phone and sometimes it doesn't upload properly.

Anyway, we went to Florida for a week to spend time with family. While we were there, Rilynn got to play with her cousin, Brynnen. Ri has always liked to scream - but Brynn wasn't too thrilled with how Ri was communicating. :)

To Do...

Is it bad to live out of a suitcase when you're at home?  :)

I just don't like unpacking very much. It's on my to-do list.